monday
10:08 a.m.
a quiet weekend. long chats with my new friend...one 4 1/2 hour session till 5:30 am. talked on the phone twice for a few minutes. sending lots of pics back and forth.
he's really cheered me up, i've been in a strange place the last few weeks. the attention is nice. we're just gonna get to know each other very well. the distance is a good thing right now i think. and the age diff is a big factor. i'm not getting all starry-eyed, i'm being realistic. but it feels nice right now. we all need some kind words.
i'm asking lots of questions, gathering info. he sounds responsible, not some sort of flake or hustler.
i mean, we met in a yahoo room, those places are full of idiots. i'm just being careful how i sound, i'm being a gentleman. at the very least, i could make a very good friend. but i know its not something that could last the ages, as far as something more. he said "well, we could have fun trying!" not that we're even talking about anything like that...please folks, hehe, i'm not planning on moving him into the garage or anything. but after several months of chatting, we'll see what we want to do next. meeting has been touched upon. he's an adult, i'm not LURING anyone.
that thing i've been holding onto the last few months...well...i'm picturing putting it away in a book on the shelf. one of those books with a secret compartment. i might take the book off the shelf sometime, or i might actually forget which book it is...i have LOTS of books.
went to rob's saturday night. watched austin city limits, neko case was excellent! found out that the show ISN'T filmed outside, i always wondered. had 2 pieces of pizza.
peter has a new bf, i'm really happy for him.
need to get the ball rolling on my home equity loan, i need money bad. i had too good of a time last year...trips, just generally being generous...to myself and others.
omg. my new friend just texted my cell..."have a good day at work."
i yi yi, he's sweet.
i was thinking the other day (uh oh!) about how last year was so awesome, and this year has been...not bad, exactly, hmmm, ok , how's this? last year i was on a roller coaster, but it was the part where you're climbing and climbing, gaining altitude... this year i crested that peak, and now i see that there are dips and curves, and maybe you go up too, only not as high and not as often..
did that make any sense?
ok. the kid is approx. 669 miles from here. down the coast. legally he can vote but not drink.
but maybe you know how much you can learn from someone over hours and hours of chat. i'm being totally honest with him and i believe he is with me too. i have no illusions about growing old together...hey, i'm already old!
dish me out some shit if you feel the need.
ok, work in a half hour.
- michael