friday
8:32 a.m.
ok...
gonna take a little time and get caught up, then i have a busy day planned... bills to pay, errands, etc.
last thursday, as i said, was a rought day at work. oh, i dunno, it was just full of stupid people...NORMAL people. work has been tight, schedule-wise, but we're dealing with it.
had a western union client, her name was nebula! whatever!
friday was fun, went to see art with kevin. ran into ykw, you saw that pic. i asked kev about yk's accent, he's got that southern thang goin' on...haha, kev said he's from san diego! met steve from the room too, that was nice.
we had dinner at the mex place that keyhole from the chat room works at...he got roughed up by some homeless guy that came in, had some boo-boo's on his face. that sucks.
went back to kev's and hung for a while. dan came out of his office and we watched deadwood on hbo. sat around and chatted, it was nice. kev was on the floor doing some art stuff. it's so comfy hangin' with those boys, i'm really envious. i think dan and i are getting to know each other a bit better, i like that. i don't bug him online these days with my problems, but all those therapy sessions DID help me.
dan reminded me about claire's first bf on six feet under...hmm, oh yes. oh, and the new puppy is so cute..."barley"...
saturday..hmmm, walked a lot, duh. went to rob's and watched the last part of son of sam, and saw the sctv dvd. son of sam...god, i hated how spike lee was playing a tv reporter covering the looting. was he supposed to be funny? he's made some great films, but he sorta bugs me.
sunday was an awesome day, went and hung with j. had lunch at the place that just changed hands, j said the burger was NOT as good as the former people made. it was fun to watch people trip over the doorway, j said everyone does that.
we took a nice hike on some trails right there in town that go along the ocean. we had our grabbers and were picking up litter. met j's friend kim and her man on the trail, i was glad to finally meet her. i heard later she really liked me, that makes me smile. went on the trail all the way to college cove and beyond, up to those beautiful cliffs. sorry, no pics, my cam is failing! the pics are coming out with lines, and are all washed out. i called casio, they had me reset it but...i guess i'm gonna have to send it in! it started this shit like 3 days after the warranty expired...typical!
we went down to the beach and around the head, got lots of stuff. then we went to the cemetery, i found the grave of a girl i used to work with. there are some very old graves there, it's a nice place.
we watched welcome to the dollhouse, listened to music...and stuff. i got home around 11:30.
waiting to hear if j wants to come down tomorrow and check out the loggers conference, might be fun.
hmm, what else?
i was checking in orders of high-end shampoo and stuff, one item is labeled "contains 100% organic aroma" !
was walking on my break the other day, over by the mental health facility. this hot shirtless guy with a fishing pole was coming up the sidewalk. he said hi, and then said "i'm gonna come back here tomorrow and see if i can get on the right meds!" ok...good luck, dude.
rob gave me an advance copy of his new cd, sounds great so far.
the horndog moon doesn't have to be a full moon..you never know when it might strike.
this really pretty chinese boy wanted to meet me for coffee today, but i got out of it. i dunno, i think it would not be a good idea, for a few reasons. maybe sometime, i'm not sure.
this diary... it's biography, right? it's nice to go back and see what i was up to in the past. i am horrible about remembering what happened in what year sometimes. rob is so good with that, i was quizzing him one night about this year and that, he has great recall.
that said, i have been feeling a bit like i have been self-censoring myself, just a touch, and i don't wanna do that. the last entry, i..oh, you know, i talk to people here sometimes, being a bit obscure, you know.
"don't write anything corny in that diary thing"...
oh, look, i said before, i don't tell you everything here. but i don't want to feel like...oh, hmmm, whatever. i don't want to upset anyone either.
but look, life is good. things are so different for me now, i am someone else, and i like who i am.
i'm going with the flow, baby. i'd fucking LOVE to be the last man standing.
insecurity is a bitch, though. it comes and goes.
that said, i'm amazed at what's going on in my life at the moment, i really am.
a special moment or two is worth all the worrying.
wow, ok. maybe i'm done here.
let's see where the weekend leads. bring it on.
MICHAEL