the days of our lives
7:58 p.m.
ok, that last entry was a bit misunderstood.
no, adreinne, not him.
stayed home today. which turned to be...the right thing to do. i needed a day to regroup.
very good chat today. i know i came off a bit frantic, but i had things i had to get out. chatted again this afternoon, and i wrote a long letter. that has to be the last one of those for a while. i run the risk of going too far.
"it's so hard in life, not knowing where things are going." that was me.
"you're not bothering me." - someone else.
yeah, major spillage from the heart today.
fuck. it's ok, though. i feel better. i had to do it. though it wasn't as major as it probably sounds. i'm always trying to clarify my points.
baby steps.
joyce at work said something like "well, it's not a matter of not trusting other people, it's not trusting yourself, not having faith in yourself." she always calls me on it when i'm putting myself down.
thank you kiwi for text analysis and RT chat commentary.
i hope to get back here soon with all the stuff i've been saving... you know, the typical goofy shit.
i've just been very stressed again. i need to calm down. the spaces between are too big for me. and it hurts.
but i wouldn't trade all this stuff for what life was like a few years ago.
maybe the weekend will be good, i'm hoping...
ok...that's all for now.
MICHAEL