friday
5:58 p.m.
hi.
just not into writing much right now. been a weird week, very addictive aspects coming through...smoking. wanking. camming.
weird dreams.
have more hiking pics to post later.
i mean, i'm FINE.
long chat with peter, i might actually go to the club tomorrow night, haha, how funny is THAT?
chatting a lot with locals, one guy i've wanted to meet for a long time. he's had an interesting life. he asked if i liked the fall and i asked him to marry me, haha!
just a little disconnected from reality this week, nothing major.
going to a fun bbq monday, lots of fags i hope.
i saw the MOON today, it was bright! :)
sometimes i'm feeling a bit angry about you-know-who...was i fucked over? the blame is 50-50 i suppose. it's unfinished. we talk almost every day.
surface.
how little i'm actually holding on to.
i wanna go across town and give someone a back rub, or whatever.
my email gave him a boner.
been very horny all week, what can i say?
EVERYONE looks hot and fuckable.
one dream...he was sad because mr. wonderful let him down. he was here, and i was consoling him. what did the torn shirt pocket mean, i wonder? i touched his neck and made it all better.
i'll tell you the other one later, i'm still analyzing that one.
would it be easier going back to just admiring rather than...persuing?
oh, but daddy's had a taste and he's very hungry.
i say i can't live on that once-in-a-while shit, but i sure did, didn't i? how could it mean so much and so little?
these are rhetorical questions.
so, yeah, angry at times. i take off before i say something stupid. which sounds good right now!
:)
ok, back after the weekend.
michael