inspirational friday
5:06 p.m.
funny how last year this time i got all bummed about something and it pushed me to make some inprovements in my life...when this year i got all bummed and kinda fell off the wagon in that respect. the house got messy, i slowed way down on walking, gained about 8 lbs back... but i'm back on that horse. feeling good. about myself. you have no idea how down i was recently.
lots of smiling here these days...
i mean, my face HURTS some nights!
i found this kinda inspirational today...
"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves ...
Don't search for the answers,
which could not be given to you now,
because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is, to live everything.
Live the questions now.
Perhaps then, someday far in the future,
you will gradually, without even noticing it,
live your way into the answer."
- rainer maria rilke
been eating sweet "pacific queen" (!) apples from NZ this week, hi, kiwi! :)
look, we're ALL adults here...this is not a NAMBLA thing. 2, 3, 4 hours a night for the last 2 weeks. i'm getting what i needed, what i was missing. fuck the miles
i'm no stranger in a dark sedan offering candy, ok?.
how nice to be walking down the street and get a text on the phone.
oh, and thanks again, mommies. my head is on straight, ladies. i was SOOO kidding about being asked for money! but even i was expecting it at first.
long distance mutual admiration. deep conversations. silly ones. favorite foods. "how was your day?" a smile that gets me hard. the occasional mind-blowing orgasm. i've done worse, believe me.
again, i have no map.
"i know what i'm doing" sounds trite and naive, but you'll have to trust me on this one. no one's being talked into anything. if i get myself hurt, "i told you so" 's are more than welcome.
ok, see you after the weekend.
- michael