"blue"
3:08 p.m.
one day at work recently, i was stocking candy and stuff, and a song started playing on the white BOSE speaker above my head...some melancholy piano chords...it was joni's "river" :
It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on
But it don't snow here
It stays pretty green
I'm going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene
Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
I wish I had a river I could skate away on
I made my baby cry
He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees
Oh, I wish I had a river I could skate away on
I'm so hard to handle
I'm selfish and I'm sad
Now I've gone and lost the best baby
That I ever had
I wish I had a river I could skate away on
Oh, I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby say goodbye
It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river I could skate away on
oh fuck. i was suddenly overwhelmed with a great wave of sadness and loneliness...i just froze for a minute or two. i mean, the old girl IS my favorite, but she can really pull on my heartstrings at times.
certain songs of hers bring back memories, sights, sounds...and more.
you know how everyone's house has a certain smell...
the thing is, it wasn't even joni, it was hmm, maybe diana krall...diane? i DO love how joni folds some minor key passages from "jingle bells" into that song, that's why she's a genius.
so, that was interesting. and look, if sometimes i can't or don't seem to want to chat too long, umm, maybe it's cuz i get sad, and maybe i don't want to be...too happy? if that makes sense, shoot me a yahoo wink some time, ok?
in other news, the sf trip next month might not be happening :( tony may be moving out, or possibly to texas, and we just don't know where things stand right now. i'm bummed, and very stressed but we have a few weeks to see what we can do. i'm keeping my fingers crossed boo, do what you can.
it poured most of the day yesterday which didn't help my mood any either.
oh well.
oh, i ordered 6 e66's the other day. but i'm not gonna tell you what those are, haha!
i'm on lunch, my day is flying by, woohoo!
ok, back in a few.
love ya's,
- M.