tuesday
11:15 p.m.
why do we want human contact?
is it to love?
to be loved?
does it validate our sense of self-worth?
is it a sense of "conquest"...some caveman dna?
to not be alone?
is it touch?
someone warm next to you in the middle of the night?
skin is wonderful.
i have decisions to make.
cut bait?
my heart is exausted.
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long chat with kiwi last night. she rocks.
long chat with peter too. good stuff. i think we're gonna be good friends.
he came by the store today. i was in a bad mood and seeing him lifted me right out of it. introduced him to joyce. peter backed up and knocked a bag of candy off a peg...joyce said he went red, i didn't notice! he bought some airborne, he's going to europe for a month, la, la, la!
peter is a tshirt/jeans/sneakers kind of guy...boyish.
being upfront with people is good. then you know what is and isn't...do you know what i mean?
welcome home sw and kevin!
rob's gonna call any minute...we've been talking late...lately.
the fork in the road is really close...but i still don't have a MAP.
"don't put your life on hold..."
i've lost count how many times i've heard that recently...
ok, byeeeee...
- M.