a dream deferred, indeed!
8:32 p.m.
rob got home safe and sound last night.
ok..now....this.
i was gonna put these in the year end entry, but...whatever.
pics i mean. in a minute.
since i'm gonna be in SF friday night, i've been thinking a bit about the aborted trip in january. tony.
we've kinda...well, he's kinda vanished. no, wait. he's around. i see his postings on myspace that he does once in a while on his friend's pages. but i've only heard from him a few times since xmas. and you know, we were talking every night. it was a fantastic 6-7 months. but there's only so far you can take things online, and maybe he realized that sooner than i did. he's working a lot, school...he just got a new laptop, and i don't really know what his living situation is. he's in a big city now, he's got things he needs to explore. and none of his boys know he's gay, so that can be hard.
but i don't regret anything, it was all wonderful. it wasn't time wasted, quite the opposite, in fact.
and maybe meeting up would have been a bad idea, i just can't say. things got very intense at times...the GOOD kind.
i mean...god, i don't think i ever told you...he sent me the letter he earned last year in basketball. HIGH SCHOOL basketball! hehehe! ( i hear dan making chicken noises :) )
we'll see what happens, if he pops by online, great. i'm not mad or anything, what's the point?
but i wanted to show you a little project i worked on back in the fall, the boy got a big kick out of it...
take one pic of room 312 at the triton hotel...
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one pic of tony on his bed...
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a pic of me on MINE...
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cut, paste, touchup, etc. etc...
VOILA!
if only everything was that easy.
with that in mind, i'm gonna post that langston hughes poem that thom shared last week...
A Dream Deferred
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
Like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
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love ya, you little shit! :)
wherever you are.
-M.