RE-RUN #29
"a little bit of everything"
11:41 p.m.
original date: 6-2-03
ok, it's late, i'm up...so i'm gonna ramble for a while...just clearing out some notes i've made in the last few days....
first off, thanks for all the nice comments about the new layout...i'm gonna try to leave it alone...
the damn cat lost his collar and bell somewhere tonight...i HATE that. i feel like i'm more in control when i can hear where he is, as silly as that sounds. i guess he likes goin' nekkid.
made some business cards tonight, they look good.
6 ft. under finale tonight, wow, it was so good this season. lisa's dead. ruth got married. brenda has a HOT new neighbor. clare had an abortion. david and keith had a good talk. and after getting the call about lisa, nate went and got in a fight in a bar and ended up...at brenda's. oh, i know, if you don't watch it, it sounds silly, but it's one of the best shows going.
did you know in england they say "series" instead of "season"?
have you seen anything about the new jewel video? she's trying to be a BIG WHORE now, that's nice. oh, i know she's being ironic, and it actually is making some sort of statement, but she's doing DANCE music now! and she still has that...tooth.
i have one of edmonton, alberta's finest on my desktop right now...don't worry, d., it's not an obsession, it's just nice to see a smiling face when i turn on the 'ol picture box. (one of edmonton, albeta's finest WHAT? haha, i'll never tell.)
and whatever happened to stevie wonder? i hear him quite often at work, and ya know, he really was a genius...i can't even think of what his last album was...have you seen his new video? no? neither has he. i love that joke.
speaking of blind people, have you ever seen love, valor, compassion? there's a character who's blind from birth, and it seems so odd that someone who's never seen could be gay...i mean, how do you realize that without seeing anything? i guess it would be sound and touch...i dunno, it just seems so strange.
i'm turning down the brightness on the computer at work every day again...it's such fun!
a guy from here was in that helicopter crash in iraq last week. he died...he was a marine.
i saw a guy today with the whitest legs i've ever seen....and last week i waited on this girl with the most amazing bazoingas...really, i was having trouble not staring.
i remember boobs, they were fun.
got a lot done this week...paid all my bills, got some car insurance things switched over...i still have the truck. not hearing much from the goose, he's busy with his friends, having fun.
burned a bunch of paper, magazines, etc. it's so relaxing. fire, fire, fire!
i made tags today for a display of picture frames i set up. one of them has like little charm bracelet thingys on it, teddy bears, baby bottles....the blue version's price tag reads "baby boy dangler"...
this was weird: the other night i was going for my last o'douls...i noticed the bottle was dark, and i thought "oh, that's cool, it's an amber." (my favorite). but it tasted funny, and when i looked at it, it was a budweiser lager! oh, my god...REAL BEER! i took another sip...i swear, there was an instantaneous buzz in my head....i thought, well, one beer....big deal....but no, i poured it down the drain. i'm not really interested in finding out where that could lead right now. the buzz wasn't pleasant at all. it's been almost 15 months now, and i guess those receptors in the brain were pretty surprised to get woken up...it tasted so strong, almost like whiskey...i dunno how strong that kind of beer IS, but it was...strong. (i just said that, didn't i?)
that reminds me of something i never did write about...last year around thankgiving, we had a potluck at work. the manager's wife made rum cake...i had a piece...fuck! it tasted like it was soaking in booze. carole said she couldn't taste anything, but i got kinda woozy and i was buzzing...it felt scary to feel that at work. i wanted to puke, not because it was making me sick exactly, but because i didn't want it in my body.
so, yeah...i guess that's that. i WAS craving a rum and coke or a vodka tonic last week, but that was all about the taste, not the high....
i'm pretty proud of myself in that area...but i still don't know if i could have one drink and leave it at that...i like to look at it like i've already had all the drinks i'm supposed to have. ok, enough on that subject...i just wanted to show how things have changed.
i wish the cigs made me sick....that's gonna be a hard one if i ever get serious about quitting.
i've been watching rob's cats while he's in portland...more on that later.
i kinda formally introduced myself to that little drummer guy today...jared. asked him about the band, blah, blah, blah. god, he's short! beautiful little hands. HAIRY legs. i was behind him, and i wanted to run my fingers through what little hair he has...he's gonna be so bald in a few years, and it's gonna look SO good on him.
when life gives you straws, you might as well grasp at 'em.
ok, that's it for now...michael