pooped/bummed
6:22 p.m.
googles for today:
"mariah carey, fuck for fun"
"rufus wainwright and shirtless"
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i am exausted.
my back is killing me.
my truck is fixed, but i won't be able to get it until monday morning.
i got pretty wet walking to work this morning.
rob is coming down from portland tomorrow, to drop another load in the garage and look for an apartment. he emailed me some of my artwork that i sent him a long time ago...stuff i lost in the big crash. here's one of them...it's actually the first art i did the afternoon i hooked up my computer...
it's adam and eve (see the snake?)...haha, i think i've gotten a little better at it since then.
i need to do a little housecleaning.
the flowers i sent on xmas eve DID arrive! they sat on the kitchen table through the holidays, and the candle was lit every night at dinnertime for the whole family to enjoy...
gadfly is back from his trip to the flooded cali wine region...boy, i sure missed his diary. he got his christmas present...the pavement re-issue with all the extra goodies.
i really hurt someone's feeling's yesterday, but i had to speak my mind...it sucks.
today i felt like i didn't belong anywhere...to anybody or anything. usually i can take pride in feeling unique, but today it was just depressing. i saw a bunch of people really having a good time, and i'm still not sure if they were just your typical frat boys or a bunch of fun-loving queers. it's getting harder and harder to tell the difference.
and i HATE that.
and people (you know, THEM) are just so fucking stupid sometimes. i have to wonder how they're even able to get themselves dressed and out of the house without assistance...but they manage somehow...and THEN they make a beeline straight for me...
so, in my mind i get to do my little church lady "superior dance"...but i'll tell ya, it's not enough.
not today, anyway.
and just what the fuck IS a "beeline" anyway?